Friday, 21 October 2016
A very hard post to write
As I write this post I am sat in a hospital bed feeling somewhat of a fraud, I am in an isolated care room on the acute medical unit of my Local Hospital ( if it's good enough for Peter Andre it's good enough for me )
As you know if you are regular reader, my attitude to life is one of tongue in cheek humour with a huge dose of sarcasm thrown in for good measure, I tend not to take life too seriously and my blog posts never contain anything too personal, as I think who wants to hear about the crappy bit's of someone else's life ? we have all been through our own battles, each and every one of you have had huge problems in your life so I'm sure you don't need mine too.
My reason for writing this ? I don't know to be 100% truthful, maybe I feel like a fraud on more than one front, here's the thing, I have had a condition called Ulcerative Colitis for around 11 years, for those of you that don't know what it is, it's a lifelong condition similar to Crones Disease, It is not something I speak about ever, outside of my immediate family, I like to pretend to be the life n soul of the party, probably with too much Prosecco and the biggest mouth :) this illness in truth is a twat and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, I am not going into the gory details, needless to say it's shit LOL
The second reason I feel like a fraud is that, in a way I have learnt to live with this as best I can, not to speak about it and just crack on, however having recently had some more biopsies, I had a conversation yesterday with the hospital that resulted in me being given a couple of hours to pack a bag and get here, after various tests blah blah, i get informed that I am staying until they can get the condition under control, which is definitely a week if I am lucky, or could take weeks!................
Ha ha they don't know me, there is no way on gods earth I will be here weeks, I have shizz to do.
I am at this moment a little bit stressed as I have some fabulous events next week that I so don't want to miss as I am looking forward to meeting so many on my online friends, so keep your fingers crossed for me that I will be out n about with a glass in hand by next week.
If by any chance you are reading this and expecting work from me, please bare with, I will do my best to keep doing my thang, but with no products and camera here things maybe a bit slow :)
All I can say is thank the gods for the internet, I would be going out of my mind without you all.
Love n hugz
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